I'm So Freaking Dramatic

It's a little embarrassing how nervous I am right now.

First of all, I just found out that iPods aren't allowed at the race. If that's true, it's going to make for a long race for me. I emailed them to see if it's ok that I use mine since I have no intention of winning. In fact, I'm just trying not to get last place. Literally.

I just looked at the results from last year and the last place guy in my age bracket (30-34) finished in a little over 1:11. Unless that guy's running again with little to no improvement...I might be him. For some reason that made me really embarrassed. Like...I really am a sucky runner. I know it's all about finishing and accomplishing something I've never done before...but, last? I don't want to be last. Unless we're talking about the Kingdom of God. Theology!

Plus, I ate like crap tonight and am a little worried about my left knee/shin.

What the heck is my problem?! Pardon me whilst I pep talk myself.

Dear Ryan,

Listen up, you sniveling little sunnova...EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE AWESOME. You're going to eat well this week and you're going to sleep well this week and you're going to exercise well and stretch well and have a good warm-up on Tuesday morning SO QUIT WORRYING ABOUT IT. WHO CARES HOW LONG IT TAKES YOU TO FINISH?? Ever hear of something called HUMILITY? I kind of hope you DO finish last so you can LAUGH about it and enjoy ACCOMPLISHING something great in your life! You're going to have friends there to cheer you on and share in your success. ENJOY THAT! And if they tell you to take your iPod off, SO WHAT? Think. Pray. Sing. Laugh. LISTEN. It'll be FINE.

So, GET EXCITED! HAVE FUN! THIS IS A BIG WEEK! ENJOY IT!

Sincerely,
Yourself

Wow...that was a lot of ALL CAPS. But, I do feel better.

(And thanks for the laugh, Jaye!)